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Saturday, July 15, 2017

Day 5

Gratitude
Extended bonus family
flexible schedule
community theater

After picking up Serena from Hannibal, we stayed in Quincy because I did not want to make the drive back home late at night.  The kids got to swim in the pool before we checked out and then we made our way to Nauvoo, IL.  For those of you who do not know, this is where my stepmom is from.  This is also where we held my dad's memorial service.  And while he is not buried there, it is hard to explain but I feel closer to dad in Nauvoo than Chicago.  I think partly because this is where his brick is in the veteran's memorial park, partly because this is where he wanted to live his last years and partly because he loved Nauvoo.  He said it reminded him of Clinton County.

That being said, we love going to see Ronnie and Sandy.  We are always welcomed there so we decided we were already in Quincy we would drive up and see them.  Bonus that it is Ronnie's birthday tomorrow so that was nice to see him and we brought him some coffee from Starbucks to enjoy every morning.  They were happy to see us.  We had lunch, went out to the field to see the Jamie set up to feed the calves and then back to the house and visited the horses.  It was nice to see them.  I need to get up there more to see them.

Friday, July 14, 2017

Day 4

Gratitude
new friendships
GPS (when they work)
patient kid - Xander did pretty well sitting in the car for 3 hours and then a concert for 2 hours

Today was the end of Serena's week at Summer Worship University.  She had a blast and I got to see what she worked on the week she was there.  It was neat to see it all come together.  She played several songs on her clarinet with the band and sang some songs with the choir.  The music and message was very uplifting  and happy.  I walked out of there feeling happy (and tired).  If you have the chance send your kids to SWU.  It's July 9 through 13 next year.  Serena cannot wait to go back.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Day 3

Gratitude
my parents
supportive husband
my kids


Positivity
So Xander is an only child this week.  Neither one of our kids are by any means neglected but it has been nice to have this one on one time with him.  His personality is enough to make you smile most days.  He only gets the only child feeling once in a blue moon.  I kind of feel bad because Serena does not really get that ever anymore because Xander never goes anywhere yet .  the only way she gets it is if we do a girls shopping trip.  We may need more of those soon.  But in the meantime I enjoy my Xander time even if it's been divided with homework too

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Day 2

Gratitude
Friendships that last
online courses 
technology to keep in touch with people


Positivity
Getting to go to dinner with a friend that I consider to be not only a friend but a mentor.  I seem to call her on her my most important decisions.  Leaving my job, taking a new job, starting school.  She has had a pretty positive impact on my life and I am grateful to be her friend.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Day 1

I watched a pretty interesting webcast about changing our outlook on life and trying to make an effort to add positivity to our lives in order to make us happier people instead of having the thought that we will be happy once we achieve something.  Because once we achieve that, then we want to achieve something else, and once we achieve that we will wait for something else before being happy and so on....

The webcast I watched had some suggestions for happiness and he said to try them for 21 days.  I am going to make an honest effort.

3 things I am grateful for:
* the ability to send my daughter to a camp she is enjoying
* a job that I look forward to going to every single day
* the opportunity to go back to school

The next step is to write a short blog about 1 thing that brought positivity or happiness in my life in the last 24 hours.

Serena is away at camp.  This is her second time going away to camp and the first time at this camp.  It was a new camp.  Exploring her faith more as well as getting some band/instrument time in.  She is getting to spend 5 days with a new friend that she has become closer to but does not see as often, which is probably a blessing.  This is teaching her you do not need to see a friend every day to be friends.  You do not have to do everything together to be friends.  It is exposing her to new people, a new faith and new possibilities.  I have gotten to talk to her twice in the last 24 hours and she is happy.  She loves the food (-yes that was a highlight for her), she is enjoying time with her friend/roommate and even met new friends in band (this is big for her as she would normally shy away if with people she does not know.  I loved hearing how happy she was when i talked to her.  She is truly enjoying herself and loving every minute of it.  She sent this picture to me because it made her giggle.  I had gotten her and Alyssa some washi tape for bible journaling to use in their journals that Tanya had bought them (plus she got a journal from her women's faith class at camp).  She was journaling tonight about her day and decided to use the Amen tape for the first time.  She sent this to me with "well that just happened."  The beginning of the tape was cut off and she did not notice it until she put it on the page but today's page says "Men Amen Amen Amen Amen."  She goes you would think they would watch where they cut off the tape.  Back to the real topic, she is having fun and seems to be enjoying all aspects of the camp:  the friendships, ministry, worship, band.  I cannot wait to get her on Friday and hear all about it.



Wednesday, December 7, 2016

See ya later or maybe not as much

Now that I caught everyone's attention.  I will probably be around minimally for the next 3 years.

After much deliberation, thought, prayer, meetings, counseling, discussion, etc, I have decided with my husband's (and kids) support to go back to college.  I am a college graduate (from Hickey) but only got my diploma because I, at the age of 18, thought I knew it all and just wanted to be done.

For years I have contemplated going back but never took the thought much further than that....a thought.  I always felt bad going back.

Why now?  Hickey contacted me because January 2017 is the last time I am eligible to enroll in their bridge program to graduate with a Bachelor's from that school.  After talking to a good friend and mentor, I compared the programs at Lindenwood to the program at Hickey and have decided Lindenwood is the best option for my family.

I registered for my first cluster of classes, and already have my first assignment, due the first day of class.  I start my communications cluster on January 5th.  The last piece waiting to finalize is my financial aid award letter which I will not be getting for a few weeks but people are guessing what my big news is and I have gotten some pm's all over the board.

That being said, I will be devoting less time online, and less time on extra curricular activities and more time on school for the next three years.

I am nervous and excited all at the same time.  Am I stupid for waiting 17 years to go back?  Am I stupid for going back now at the age of 35?  Am I stupid for going to college when in a few years we will be sending one to college?  The answer to all of this is no.  I am not stupid. This will only benefit me.  I know this now but I was terrified of making this leap and the implications it will have on my family but I am hopeful that the short term disturbances in our every day life will be worth it's weight in gold when I am done with school.

Friday, November 18, 2016

Lots of Memories

My dad has been gone 798 days.  This time of year is bringing a flood of emotions and memories.  Thinking of the last few days, weeks, months with him.  Thinking of the last time he came here and the times before that when we took it for granted that he'd be coming back.  Thinking of when he was originally diagnosed and being told it's not that bad.  He can beat this.  Thinking of the time we thought he did beat it.  Thinking of all of the stuff he has missed.  Serena has been in Mulan, Seussified, Shrek and now Charlie Brown Christmas...xander has been in Mulan, Shrek and now Charlie Brown Christmas.  Serena has graduated grade school, gotten confirmed and started in high school.  She had field shows, soccer conditioning and a bunch of mostly nonsignificant milestones that to my dad would have been significant.  Xander is a boy scout, loves soccer and tball.  Dad has miss every single one of those events and i know if he was here he would have made it a point to show up to all of that.  He would have been at her graduation party and he would have spent the weekend with them.  I miss that.  I took that for granted and now I wish I had that and more all over again.  Things have changed so much since his death.  More than I ever imagined.  New people have come into my life and some people have chosen to leave our lives.  I made the mistake of coming across an email of his earlier today and that made me miss him more.  The lights parade is this weekend and that made me miss him more.  Thanksgiving is next weekend and you guessed it, i miss him more.